The thoughts in my head.

Heads up.

2012-02-11T16:08:00.000+08:00

Hello. Sorry for not updating my blog. I'm a little bit busy with school works and co-curricular activities but I sometimes logged in to the Internet. PKBM this year pretty much sucks. Only a few of those who come to practice every Wednesdays. And I am pretty much upset that I feel like I don't really want to continue teaching them shit for the rest of the year if only there were actually the whole squad that came. Every year the people in this team are decreasing. It sucks, man. I'm disappointed -__- I can't really teach them the basic steps 'cause I didn't really remember it anymore. Those were in the days when I was 13 and that 2008 year was one of the best year of PKBM (L) history, for me. Welp, I don't wanna bore you with this PKBM stuffs, nobody really cares about it.

So, I haven't studied yet for this year. The trials are set in August, after celebrating Raya Aidilfitri. And then there's SPM. Penentu masa depan. Damn it, tests and exams...I hate it. But, it's for my own good. Lately, I feel like I'm in a lot of stress. Mainly because of my friends at school and the environment here. I feel like I wanna move far away from here, sucks when people don't really appreciate you and only talks to you when they needed something from you. Everybody seems so..BLIND or DUMB or something. I can't deal with that, I'll lose my temper too easily. Can't really explain everything in here, words can't describe my mind or thoughts right now.

There's a yellow-tailed bird making its nest on my bonsai tree in front of my parents' bedroom. the bird has lay its egg and it was a tiny maroon egg that almost looked like over-sized M&MS or something. Sho cute :3 Every time I walked outside to peep over the nest, the bird stayed in its nest and will fly away immediately if there was any threat to itself.

So, up until now, I have a road run scheduled on Friday 17th and can't wait for it ! So excited~ Such a hot day today..went to school today, yes. On Saturday -___- Bukannya belajar pun, ada PIBG shit and stuffs. Regretted coming to school. Went to watch the boys playing futsal instead with Maryam at the basketball court. Amusing, might I added. There's so many funny scenarios, like people falling and stuffs. Haha, weird humor. I know, well, I got to go. Will write as soon as I can :)

-Rosalina

Late.

2012-01-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

HI ! And happy new year 2012. I'm sorry I haven't updated this blog for over a month now. I mean, since New Year, I think. I have no Internet connection and this is for temporary only. My Internet line has been cut off and yeah. But this situation gave me some sort of opportunity to stay focus on my studies. And it worked. Hahaha, so this year, I'm the head of PKBM (L). That means I'm the chief this year, with SPM on its way to crush my brains into million of pieces. I became the treasurer of my basketball club or something and then I joined hockey. And I suck at hockey 'cause I'm a newbie and nobody looked like they're interested in teaching me the basics of hockey. Well, whatever then. School was fine, btw.
There's this one certain person, I called him Jose for some reason and I don't know whether it's just me or whether it's real or not..I mean, he doesn't even know me. He's new, and uh, he always giving me this looks. Like there's one time I was on my way to the front gate to go home and I saw him walking with his buddies. And suddenly he turned to his back and saw me. I was like, is this a coincidental or something 'cause he was staring straight in my direction multiple times. and then there was this time at the perhimpunan at the astaka, I had a cold and was sucking my nose and stuffs, and I looked up, he was staring straight at me. WTF MAN. I EVEN DREAM ABOUT HIM. ONLY AFTER THREE WEEKS SEEING HIM IN SCHOOL. WTF WAS THAT.

Okay I gtg now. Haha, later.

-Rosalina

Food and students.

2011-11-25T00:56:00.001+08:00

Hai, kawan-kawan. I'm at Dalia's right now and it's 1 05 AM. I just got off from work with Dalia. She had this catering kind of thingy at UITM. So, I've been searching for a job anyways, and alhamdulilah I actually got one. Thanks to Dalia :) Last two nights, I slept over at her house too. On Monday and Tuesday. Yesterday I slept on my house so tonight, back on her house 'cause tomorrow both of us are going to have gurly day out at Sunway~ I haven't gone out for such a long time. Back to seeing people again. Yay~

*sigh* My English sucks nowadays. Gotta concentrate more on my English classes and read more English books from now on, and in Bahasa Melayu as well.

Aigoo, THANKS TO DALIA OVER HERE, I'M ADDICTED TO A KOREAN DRAMA, PROTECT THE BOSS. What the hell, man. Haizzzzzzzzzzzzz, and I'm obsessed over the main guy actor, Ji Sung. Shit, man. I'm so gonna be forever alone because once I'm attach to someone, I'm totally gonna stalk the hell out of him !! Sucks to be me, *sighs* Welpz, gotta go sleepz. Later~

-Rosalina

I've been thinking 'bout forever~

2011-11-21T10:54:00.001+08:00

Caught off guard, I'm listening to Thinking About You (Cover) - Justin Bieber & Jaden Smith right now. Dang JB's voice is like, sooo different and sexay. Good for listening, though. So, I'm up, from 8 in the morning. Good morning, everybody ! I was thinking that I could use a jog around the park with Dodol, but yeah. Maybe in the evening I guess. Right now, I'm stuck at home. No plans for the upcoming holidays, and in December, maybe I'll be gone for two weeks 'cause I have to go to KD Sri Gombak for some courses. I'm super excited and nervous at the same time. Wonder what's it like to be on the army ship --lol, not really an army ship-- and along with some other might acquaintances that I've met during camping, or maybe some new faces. I don't know..hopefully, everything goes as well as planned.

So ! I have a new kitten~ Her name is Tom. She's so adorable and playful. She's also very bloated haha, maybe because there's wormy worms inside her stomach. But, she managed to get all of the wormy out by vomiting silently in some corner or other section of the floor. I witnessed four worms with a trace of vomit. Damnnn. The worms are still alive....... Why do I even talk about this ? Well, anyways, here's the picture of Tom :B

I don't know whether her eyes are either blue or grey..or even green. It's like a mixed of the colors I mentioned earlier. If only you look closer her soul haha, then you know what it looks like. I must say, her frickin' ears look so huge, everytime I get mad at her, I just pulled her ears downwards and look at her face. Hahahaha, sho cute :3 She gets crazy when I put my hand above her head.
I better go and get my shower since there's a guest is one his way to my house. Haaa, lazy lazy Monday. Later~

-Rosalina

Lifetime.

2011-11-19T20:55:00.001+08:00

Hey there, haven't been updating this blog for like, two months I guess. I've been busy finishing my last post about my camping days two months ago. Yeah, well, I survived my last exam this year. It was pretty tough, but I manage to pull it out through and ended up getting second place out of 34 students :) Haha, I failed two subjects, which obviously two of the subjects that I suck at. Additional Mathematics and Principle of Accounting. *sigh* My dad was shouting jokingly why I failed P.A and A.M but my mom said 'Congratulations' and then she hugged me. They both didn't seem too frustrating and pissed off anyway, so I think that's a good thing. I feel so proud all of a sudden :)

Helios Eclipse by Kaoru

So, the holidays are in and I am considering to whether to get a job at the mall. Maybe at Big Apple Donuts shop or even Secret Recipe Cafe.. I got influenced waaaaay too much by a book that I read two weeks ago. I'm interested in bakery and cooking...so I thought I could give a shot, though. In things like this. It'll be cool ! Holiday are so not in in me. I seemed to be staying at home for most of the days and the lazyness is growing on me. I hardly ever go out anymore. But yeah, I spend my afternoons reading these comic books yesterday's night and today~ It's my favorite comic book collection ♥ The artiste is one of the locals and I loveee her artworks.

Lately, I have this enormous cravings on sugary sweets and pastries. I can't stop eating and dreaming about cakes and chocolate desserts. The hormones must be kicking in, I guess. Welp, I better go get my dinner before gastric pain attacks my organs. I can feel it cominnnnn'. Shit, okay later~

-Rosalina

Camp PKBM (L) Peringkat Zon Tengah 2011

2011-09-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

WARNING : This post may contain various types of sentences and alphabets. Be prepared for your eyes to be strain while reading this post.

HAI ! I'm back, bitches !!!!!!! Hahaha, it was awesome ! One of the best camping trip ever ! Despite the unexpected accidents occurred while I was there, and it is indescribable. Long story short, let me give you the description of the days in my camping trip :) Whether in English or in Bahasa Melayu~

Day 1 :
Left home at 9 30 am and headed straight to school after I shook my mum's hand and hugged her goodbye, I was pretty sad actually. Haha, I never left home not more than three days for camping.. Okay so, after hours of waiting for the bus, all of us finally get on the bus after loading our stuffs into the bus that we shared with SMK Jeram and they didn't left us any space to put our stuffs in. Selfish. And all of us are on our way to Sg. Tekala, Hulu Langat ! Until the bus bus took a wrong turn when we almost got there and finally we arrived. It was pretty crowded and the students there kept giving us some weird looks but I don't even care. I didn't noticed at all at that time. Our teacher brought us to the Urusetia tent for registration and all of us got free PKBM (L) T-shirt. After registration, teacher told us to get something to eat and then we can set up our tent at the campsite.
Ten minutes after that, all of us carrying our stuffs towards the campsite and settle in in the middle of it. Settling i next to us was a big tent for staffs, G.I, Chief and some other people. After getting a little help some of the Chief there for the tent, then there's some guy standing infront of our tent. I was like, who's that guy. So I went over and putting some gun powder in front of my tent and then, the guy was like, talking to me or something. I didn't know he was talking to me so I just pretend I didn't hear him. The he raises up his voice a little to me and saying are you deaf ? Then I turned around and pulled out a face. Blablablablabla, he talks. Then, me, Hanis and Syameera went to the toilet to change our clothes when something funny came along. Both of them went to the guys' bathroom and then they run out of the bathroom laughing and pulled out a disgust look on their face. I asked what's wrong and they were like, 'THERE WERE PIECE OF SHIT ON THE MOTHERFREAKING TOILET !' I was like, peeking into the bathroom and saw nothing haha I was too lazy anyways. Back in the tent, our tent, Syameera was like, 'Dang, it looked like a banana' Then I burst out laughing like crazy. HAHAHA. That night, at dawn, the rest of all 21 schools gathered around at the dataran near the tent that places the catering food. I had to report the Chief on how many people there in my school and stuffs like that.

Turns out the guy in front of our tent is actually, my school's Foster dad ! Since 2008, I didn't even know he exist or even a foster dad to my school. Then, he taught me on how to report to the chief and then he starts to talk about something else. Haha, I was annoyed by the fact that he can't stop talking about the same things over and over again but I just kept quiet and listens to what he said anyway.
That night, the Tuan, G.I and some other staffs told us to sit down on the ground and then they put up a big screen for presentation of Base Defense. TLDM Base Defense. It was, good presentation though, even with the spelling... Haha, we didn't have any activities, 'cause we arrived late and all. That night also, before sleep, the Tuan made a night visit to every camp and I had to give him report about my team's camp. I put on my Bravo uniform and yeah.

Omnomnomnom

AYAHANDA IN BLUE

Cooking on Day 1

END OF DAY 1.

Day 2 : DISASTER STRUCK
All of us got up at 5 AM and the staff were announcing on the speaker : "*WHISTLE BLOWING* ASSALAMUALAIKUM DAN SELAMAT PAGI AHLI-AHLI KADET. BANGUN, BANGUN" He said in a dull and un-energetic voice. Hahaha, I was half awake and by the fact that all of us were in a recreational forest and it was cold like hell, with the fog and all. Woke up, washed my face, brushed my teeth and then gathered all of my juniors to the field near the camp. That morning, we had exercise for Jalan Lasak and Jungle Trekking. The schools are divided into two groups, A and B. I'm in the B group so the B group would have to go Jalan Lasak. Jalan Lasak is like, a race between other schools who are in the Group B as well. So, yesterday, the staffs gave us this 10 big army bottles, 20 pouches, 9 belts and 9 straps for Day 2. And 10 mastin for cooking and stuffs. We even got 2 RANGSUM TEMPUR which is a box consists of food and pretty much heavy. Ada lauk lauk, gula, kopi, teh, garam, biskut, jem nanas, mancis...and some other needs, then today, we started running and I was in front of my team, my foster dad on the side and my teacher is on the back. Haha, I was jogging with everybody and constantly looking at the back for who knows, one of my juniors would've trip over or anything. Then my teacher was like, running slowly and I told everybody to slow down and walk. Haha, kesian tengok cikgu, dah tercungap-cungap kat belakang. Foster dad, we called him 'Ayahanda' was like, 'KEMON LAH LEADING, KEMON' HAHAHAHAH. It was funny to hear him shouting and excited like that. With his thick Kelantanese accent. He's actually a Shah Alan dude. I didn't expect that. My team didn't expect that too.

The race was equipped with staffs throwing out bombs and whenever it explodes, we had to sorta put our hands at the back of our head and bend down and then continued our race. It was a race filled with loud noises. We finally reached back o our campsite and sitting in one group while waiting for food to be serve by the catering there, sponsored by the TLDM people. After that, we ate and ate and cleaned ourselves up before the next activity. The lecture about M-16 opening the arts and assembled them back together. Knowing the parts and stuffs. The I heard thunder from above. I told Hanis, to go and get our clothes from the suspension we made at the trees. We both ran outside after getting permission from our Ayahanda and went straight towards our tent. We packed everything back inside our bags and I got out my Public Bank rain jacket and put it on and get out the hoodie. The rain is pouring out heavily and I went outside to look at the condition. I heard something broke and as I look up, I saw a huge tree falling down near my tent. The everybody starts to shout and somebody was like grabbing me and said " WEH CEPAT PERGI, JOM AH !" And the I called after Hanis and told her to let it after we finished putting the bags in our juniors' tent for protection from the rain 'cause my tent is flooded with water and it stinks like hell. Then we all ran towards the tent that had everybody covering for shelter from the rain. I saw the staffs, and officers were running out to the road, saving their cars and motors and I heard there's kid got hit by the tree and got rushed to the hospital nearby. His arm was bleeding, according to my junior.

That night, G.I told us to move our camp and set it on the field, macam dataran lah gitu, and all of the schools were like, cleaning it all up and then moved their tent from the campsite to the dataran. Everybody settle in and tents are all up, mine also and then the night visit by the Tuan there, and our camp's like a mother F bullshit 'cause of its condition. Haih, Ayahanda and some of other staffs helped us to set up the tent and nail it to the ground because its like some kind of, an old tent that needs something to hold on to, so yeah. When everything is all set up, we pull the end of the tent and let the air come and go so that the stinky air would get out of it and the tent will eventually dry. I think. Then, all of us cooked together and then the bulb on the edge of the tent that covers us all blows off and there's no more light. It's like, frickin' dark in here. How to eat and cook...
-SKIP-
That night again, me with another friend of mine went off to duty at the Urusetia camp. I was told to do a report of people who got sick during camp. So, I just do what they told me to do. Then, I was with my Public Bank Rain jacket because it was cold as hell and we're in the middle in the frickin' forest and yeah. And then, there's this one Pegawai, he was like "Kau kerja kat Public Bank ke ?" He then stifled a laugh.
"Er, tak, ayah saya kerja kat Public Bank dulu" -__-
And then every old people in there just laughs and chuckled.
Why does everybody always dissed me with my rain coat -__- not cool bro, not cool.
Description of my Rain jacket : Red and Whit, With massive lettering on the back that says : 'PUBLIC BANK" and a little one on my left side. Super huge one, L sized.

JENGJENGJENG I saw this one staff, he was holding a guitar and he was..pretty much gewd lewking and I, on the other hand, was too distracted by the guitar and Yeah, what to do. It's not mine nor my friend's to just snatch the guitar and play it just like that. Then, eventually, the staff sits in front of me and asked whether I had any scissors or not. I said, yeah in the First Aid Kit. So I got it out and handed the scissors to him. I saw he hastily cutting a pick out of a credit card, and then, I spontaneously asked him, " Nak buat pick ke ?"
"Huh ? Oh, haah" He nodded and then his eyes flickered back at me.
"Kau main guitar ke ?" He asked, surprised.
Me, with my excited face nodded and then he handed me his guitar and then I started to play :D Fok yeah ! Ada geng main guitar ! Hahaha, then he looks like he wanted the guitar back and then I gave it to him and he starts playing. I was like, oooooo hahahaha. He sang some familiar song and then he smiles. Haha, then he gave it back to me and we shared some stories about ourselves and all~ While he was talking, I notice that his eye contact were like, shifting rapidly. Lol, funny and weird looking at the same time. Blabla, shift dah habis. Then semua orang tidur.

Day 3 : Adventures.
Midnight
I woke up several hours after sleep. I turned around and saw Hanis sitting and hugging her feet.
"Weh, kau okay ke duh ?
"Tak."
I was shivering like a mad man and then me and Hanis went out of our tent because it was freezing like hell and wet. My clothes are wet because of the water that get in our tent earlier. So, Hanis's pants are like damp with the water and Syameera is sleeping silently in the middle. So both of us went outside to report the officers about our condition in the tent. As I walk out of the tent, I can see that there are other boys sleeping on a military bed that we can set up on our own. Then, pergi lapor dekat Urusetia, tengok tengok tak ada orang -__-semua tengah tidur. I was pissed off and then stormed back to my tent. Hanis was like talking about something and I was not paying attention haha. Alas, we took three chairs and set it on near the boys and sitting, and talking about the condition. Eventually, we fell asleep on the chair until something happened. I heard somebody farted like, SUPER FRICKIN' LOUD and then I peeked under my hoodie, and saw Hanis is still sleeping. Shit, I wonder if she heard that or not. HAHAHAHAH. I heard people snoring, and mengigau.. After an hour we slept outside, we went back in the tent. I finally managed to sleep.

The next morning, We had JUNGLE TREKKING ! The most coolest experience ever ! We walked and hiking in the forest near our camp by group of our own school member. The atmosphere was cool and green. Though it was tiring hiking in the woods, with sweats pouring out of my head like rain, I still feel the breeze in the woods. This one school behind us was like, can't stop shouting and making noises that pisses Hanis off. Haha, I just told them not to care much about them. Because we're in the woods, not in a theme park. We have to watch our mouth for not saying something offensive or you'll get in real trouble. There's this one guy, in-front of my school, he's from Taman Keramat school, the leader, ehehehe. You get the drill :) Okay, after we finished hiking, we settle back in our campsite and have something light like, kuih-muih and stuffs like that for brunch. Later that evening, we had to perform for Malam Mesra, which every 21 schools had to perform in front of everybody. So, I suggested that I play the guitar, while they recite a poem about all the staffs and officers, so it's like a joke about them.

THAT NIGHT..
After watching so many hilarious acts and plays by some certain boys' school, it is my school's turn and I think we sucked. Haha pretty bad. But yeah whatever.

LATER THAT NIGHT..
All of us went to bed earlier and before that, our Ayahanda told us that there might be activities later that night so he just told us to get some sleep and yeah. ------------- I woke up after I heard a loud ass laughter of the Chief. It scared the sit out of me and I was shivering like hell. Even with my Public Bank jacket is on, the weather was cold and I still shivered like fuck. The laughing scared the shit out of me. It was like, 2008 all over again, where they wake you up for this mission that they put you in..where there's a situation kononnya ada terrorists datang masuk kat kawasan perkhemahan. And then when its our turn, the Awasan Merah's shift to guard all the path ways to our camp, I got out of the ten with my junior dude saying 'weh, bangun, bangun' Then I got out with a tired look on my face and put my spectacles on my nose once again. After everybody is all up, Ayahanda told us the directions for us to guard anf of we go. I went back to my tent to get my torchlight and went back into my group. All of us guarded in front of the main road, flickering our torchlight around the road and just, well, you know..point the light to every person that passes by us. We shouted out the word code for something. Haha, yeah.. Then, we heard loud bombing noises inside the camping area that we abandoned because of the flood and then we heard some the loud preet preet sounds of the whistles and then one terrorist has been captured. Haha, it was funny, tho. Then, our shift has ended and we were brought to the officers' tent where there got one of my junior sleeping because she is sick or some shit. Spoiled brat, haih. And then when were were all sitting in the not-so-warm tent and Ayahanda is lazying on the army bed, haha all of us had a small talk and then theres the bombing noise again. Then the second terrorist got caught and it was that handsome staff ! Hehehe. That night was filled with bombing noises. After all of the activity, all of us went back to rest for tomorrow's activity.

Day 4 : Competition.

We got up at early in the morning, as usual. Did out daily routines, cleansing ourselves and then, gathered under the tent for some explanation for the activities that morning. The officers said that we'll be having a cooking and tali-menali competition. So does re-assembling the M-16 guns but it turned out there weren't gonna be any guns...assembling. I watched six of my juniors competing in those two competition and trying to help them a bit and yeah. Cooking, I saw some of the other school's dish (all of us are given a packet of Rangsum Tempur and some vegetables to cook it with) were pretty much creative. Pretty cool though, seeing others' specialties with coking. Haha, well yeah. I just sit there and watch, while doing nothing. Where I was supposed to compete against other school for assembling an M-16 gun -____- But that didn't work, so. Yeah. Later that evening, it was raining. And that night is probably the last night for the camping as it is for five days and 4 nights only. They wanted to make the night memorable and yeah official. Which they invited the Panglima of the Navy and Menteri Pendidikan to come over. So all of us had to clean the whole area and moved our tents to the camping site and then helping the officers to re-locate the big tents for the Panglima and the rest of the guests to come for that nights' event. So the cleansing begins..
-SKIP-
Time lepas Maghrib je, semua orang berkumpul dekat dataran untuk beberapa taklimat oleh G.I and then my group was at the back because apparently, some juniors can't make her/his way quite fast enough and lucky us we didn't get punished -__- Everybody was dressed in a black T-shirt (the ones in the upper photo) and I saw this one dude who kept glancing at me. I don't know whether he's looking at me or not but, I ca feel the weight if someone was really looking at me. Bukannya perasan but, as I glanced back at him, JENGJENG he's looking at me. Yeap. Haha, well, whatever.
LATER..
Selepas itu, haha, lawak pulak, okay, pastu, G.I semua buat ah rehearsal. Budak-budak St.John yg bagpipes semua main lagu entrance masa Panglima and all of the other guests nak datang. Then, all of the other kids including me have to like, turned to our sides to face the Panglima and yeah. After that, the Panglima arrives with the police or something and then, everybody gets ready for the main event and preparation for everything and all. The bagpipes' melody are flowing through my ears smoothly. Everything went well, and then, there's the whole drama of Malam Mesra and all. Remember the St. John's performance ? Well, they made the Panglima salute, to them. Which is a very proud moment for them as well. Hahaha, and then the ceremony for the certificates and the gifts for us for participating in this camping trip went on, and yeah. It was a memorable night :)
-SKIP-
LATER THAT NIGHT...
My group was waiting for Ayahanda and teasing him about wearing pink. He claimed that he never wore any pink shirts o whatever in his life. Hahaha, his forst time. What a guy. Lol. And then I remembered that earlier last evening that all of us made a bet about who slept the most late gets to treat for lunch at anywhere else that got fast food or anything. Haha, we moved our tent under a roof next to a pretty much abandoned cafeteria but it's just looked abandoned it's not really abandoned. We settled in and just gathered around putting chairs around. I'm sitting down at some stairs leading up to the cafeteria and decided to make coffee for everybody until a couple of my juniors just got back from the Urusetia said that the G.I requested some coffee as well. After got all of the stuffs and I went on waiting for my juniors to search for another mastin for the water, I saw four dudes were like, lingering in the dark. I was starting to feel uneasy for a while. Three other dudes stifled a laugh while this one chubby and weird looking dude approaches me and started asking what's my name and number. I told him my name and said that I didn't have any phone and I decided to ignore the shit out of that guy. He awkwardly stand in one position and slowly disappears into the dark. What a creep.
After a short while, my juniors and Ayahanda gathered around the fireplace and just talked, making conversations and Ayahanda was snuggling up with his small pillow against his chest and I was like, laughing at him for doing that. Soon, one by one of my juniors went to sleep. I slept at like, 4AM 'cause you know, I'm a nocturnal kind of person so yeah. Haha, after few minutes of that, I finally decided to sleep.

Day 5 : Farewell.

The last day of camping. I felt like I don't wanna go home. It's too fun out here with my new friends and all..back in school is all the same ol' people, same ol' faces. I really need to get out more, I mean in real life. I woke everybody up, including Ayahanda who was sleeping in his sleeping bag. I literally threw him a twig or something like that.
Few moments later, all of the troops gathered and G.I gave us tasks to do with cleaning and packing our stuffs and all. Some of the juniors went all hanging around the places and Hanis and I went picking up trashes everywhere. Like, DBKL or something. After finished cleaning the place, we were told to gathered once again for the last time for the G.I's speech about how we were all doing so far in this camping trip, and that maybe it will be the last one since some 15 schools out of 20 schools will be dropped out of PKBM (L)'s list just to see which school is the most committed to the PKBM (L) units. My school is one of the 15 dropouts so, I was pretty disappointed. Still am.

So, we had our lunch and then carried our stuffs into the bus when suddenly the dude whom I had a crush on, asked his buddies to help us our after he saw me carrying the big boxes of Rangsum Tempur all alone. Hehe, nice guy :B Then, me and my juniors met our 'foster' dad and other officers to say goodbye and thank you for all of the facilities and our safety while we were on the camping trip..and all the fun moments..hahah, Ayahanda was pretty sad, I can see it in his face. By the way, I shook hands with the handsome staff, huehuehue. Firm grip on my hand, I didn't expect that. There's one officer that teased me about my Public Bank rain jacket, he said he was sorry for teasing me. Hahah, I almost cried because I don't wanna leave just yet. I'm so gonna miss them like hell. The people, of course, and the situation.....hmmm.
That's when it's time to leave, and my troops were walking towards our bus until my crush on that camp, along with his troops walked with us. I was walking alone and then he approached me and was like, "Hey, sekolah mana ?" "Oh hey, Sultan Salahuddin" " ? Dekat daerah mana tu ? Kajang ehh ?" "Bukan lah, dekat Shah Alam, Seksyen 2" " Ohhh, haha okay" "Korang pulak ?" "Kitorang Dari Keramat" *sudden realization* OH NO WONDER.... "Ohhhhhhh, patutlahhh.." "*chuckled* Kenapa ?" "Eh, tak ada apa-apa :) " "Haha, cakaplah kenapa ?" "Takde apa-apa lah, hehe, saja je" "Alrighty then :)" I SWEAR TO GOD, HE HAS THE MOST SWEETEST VOICE AND SMILE I'VE EVER SEEN IN MY WHOLE LIFE.
So, we get on our buses and I said goodbye to him..what a sweet guy, *melts* and he said good bye to me back and smiled.....and then I went over to my seat at the back next to the window.

LATER AT SCHOOL.
After transferring all the stuffs and gathered in front of the hall, I gave my juniors and myself 20 Airborne for punishments in lack of discipline and punctuality. Plus, their attitudes annoys the fuck outta me. I don't say I gave them a little hard time while on the camping trip, I did, and yeah. It was sooooo inappropriate. I gave them punishment while one of the junior's mother was there. I don't give a fuck, bro. I just did it. Tak tahan siot, perangai macam apa je, time camping. Haduh, tension aku. -___- Then after we dismissed everybody, one by one, went home. I lived nearby so, walking was a routine for me everyday, going to school. But my stuffs are tooooooo heavy. With the rain-soaked clothes. Haih.
Fortunately, one my teacher who is also my neighbor, give me a ride home. With those bags I carried, haaaa I would've struggled if I walked -__- And I'm home :)

That's pretty much it., haha to all who made it til' the end of this post, I am surprised. 'Cause the fonts are small, I mean blindly small. Haha, yeah. That's all I guess. I'll write later.

-Rosalina

Survival Camp.

2011-09-18T14:02:00.001+08:00

Nah, I'm just kidding on the title. As some certain people know, today is my last day before I go camping at Sg. Tekala, Hulu Langat with 13 of my PKBM (L) juniors and my friends. And of course, with teachers.. This camping trip or whatever, includes the whole Selangor that had PKBM (L) cadets in their schools so, we got to meet and get-to-know with the rest of the students. I mean, cadets. The last time I went camping is in 2008. Which, I had two camping trips and it was aweeesome :D I love camping, I'm actually a pretty much an adventurous girl, I got that trait from my mom :) Seriously, I'm excited as hell while I'm typing this with a poker face but STILL !

Goodbye long hair...

Hopefully, this enthusiasm won't get crushed to pieces when I soooon got there. And doing something not interesting.........okay ! So, I've been packing since Friday and cutting my long hair (image on the left) :( It's like, short, upper arm short. I'm cutting it because, it's really hard to take care of my long hair while camping and doing some pretty much extreme activities while I'm there. Five days, camping. Yeah, did I mention that already ? Five days with no Internet and mobile phone.. Well, I guess I have to endure it. So do he, hahaha.

Maybe, I can work out this not-so-new hair of mine and feeling like a 14-year-old again. Olritey ! Gotta go packing up and yeah. See you guys in five more days !

Random shit 1

2011-09-08T23:13:00.001+08:00

1. First thing you wash in the shower?My body.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?

Mostly grey, and bright colors too.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

My mom ? Sure :)
4.Do you plan outfits?

Yes.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?Sad as fuck, miserable, irritated, rage.

6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?

McDonald's coke.
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?

Aim or a-i-m, i don't know.
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?

I actually dream about him and my classmates. I think I was running away from something in pure annoyance I don't know what that means.
9. Did you meet anybody new today?

Nah, just some of my buddies for assignments and hanging out, mostly.
10. What are you craving right now?

Pizza and new shoes.
11. Do you floss?

Yes.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?

A green thing and of course, cabbage.
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?

Two minutes ago.
14. Are you emotional?Yes, I am right now.

15. Would you dance to the taco song?Nope.

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?No, why would I ?

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?Lick it, and then I bite it.

18. Do you like your hair?Do I like it ? I love it~

19. Do you like yourself?I'm not sure.

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?Yeah :)

21. Do you like cottage cheese?Never tasted it, haha.

22. What are you listening to right now?Some weird tv sounds.

23. How many countries have you visited?5 ?

24. Are your parents strict?Yes, at some points.

25. Would you go sky diving?TOTALLY !

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?No way in hell.

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?Fuck yeah !

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?Nahhh

29. Have you ever been in a castle?I think so...

30. Do you rent movies often?Nah, I just downloaded it from the internet.

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?Maryam.

32. Have you made a prank phone call?Multiple times !

33. Do you own a gun?Water gun, yes.

34. Can you count backwards from 74?Yes.

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?All by myself.

36. Brown or white eggs?White eggs~

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?Nope, can't afford 'em. hahaha

38. Ever been on a train?Yeap !

39. Ever been in love?I'm not sure about that.

40. Do you have a cell-phone?Yes.

41. Are you too forgiving?Not really.

42. Do you use chap stick?Yeap.

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?I don't know.

44. Can you use chop sticks?Yes ! But I need more practice with'em.

45. Ever have cream puffs?Mmmmmm hm.

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?Yeah, but I don't remember anymore.

47. What was the last question you asked?"Do you get me ?"

48. What was the last CD you bought?HAHA, The Black Eyed Peas. lol

49. Boys or girls?Boys~

50. What is your bus number for school?I walk to school, bruh.

51. Is your hair curly?Wavy.

52. Last time you cried?30 minutes ago.

53. Ever walked into a wall?Uhh, hehe yeah.

54. Do looks matter?Sometimes. It represented your personality.

55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?Nsah, never heard of it.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?Yes.

57. Favorite time of the year?When I hangout with a bunch of closed friends, ah the old times.

58. Favorite color?Shades of blue, the pastel colors.

59. Are you sarcastic?Very very much so indeed.

60. Do you have any tattoos?No ! Muslims are not allowed to have tattoos.

61. The last person you held hands with?Does knuckle count ?

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?No, what a waste of energy.

63. Where was your default picture taken at?Dalia's house.

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?Hate. No, I despise them.

65. Do you like your life right now?Not much, but I'm grateful to even being alive. Alhamdulillah.

66. How often do you talk on the phone?Not much.

67. What is your favorite animal?Cat, and anything fluffy.

68. What was the most recent thing you bought?Shoes, and foods. hahaha

69. Do you have good vision?Not really.

70. Can you hula hoop?I think so.

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?No way, bro.

72. Do you have a job?Still studying~

73. Can you handle the truth?Yeah, but I'll probably get hurt for a little while.

74. What are you wearing?Big pink shirt and khaki basketball shorts.

75. Have you ever crawled through a window?Ehehe yeah.
-Rosalina

Happy, happy, happy !

2011-09-04T01:42:00.003+08:00

Raya has been good to me :) I visited some of my old relatives and my dads friends somewhere and my aunts and uncles for the week. I got a lot of duit raya and pretty much grateful. Sorry, no pictures. We, as in the whole family, didn't really took pictures this year.

So, moving on. Today, is such a happy day for me today :) As I woke up earlier in the morning, feeling asahflafhaslkha whether to visit him in the hospital or not haha I was being weird, I don't know why. Hope he doesn't read my blog. Whatever. Then, Dodol called me, and she said she wanted to celebrate raya at my house. Dah kabut kabut semuanya, akhirnya tak menjadi. She didn't came and tomorrow, she'll visit me. As for me, I went to Carrefour in section 23, hahah. Tak pernah pergi Carrefour, lol. Off to Carrefour, buying some stuffs as in stuffs, I meant junk-foods and some other shet. There, the prices were quite expensive rather than in Tesco. So, off we go to Tesco in section 13~

Tesco.
Just strolling around some sections until my mom asked for my help to go weighing some onions. It was a long queue and then, there's this cheery old Chinese man came along with his friendly approach, saying 'Wah, panjangnya', then he started to counted the people who queued along with us. I smiled as he was busy talking out loud.
Hahaha, old people, I mused.
Then, he shuffled past me and stood behind me with his bag of vegetables. The old Chinese man and I started to small talk and he talked to me about the Chinese traditions and customs.
'Y'know ah, people who hasn't married yet are considered as a child. Even when they reached 100 years old and haven't got married yet, they are still considered as a child', He said, as a matter of fact.
'Oh, really ?', I nodded, I know about it because last year, I made an assignment on Chinese traditions, festivals and customs.
'Ya lah ! *Laughs* You sudah kahwin ka belum?', He teased.
'*Eyes widened* Haha ! Belum, belum !', I hastily shook my head.
He reaches into his front pocket and handed me a yellow packet of ang pau and said, 'Ha ! Nah, ini duit raya !'.
'Eh, thank you !', I grinned happily.
Then the customers around me smiled and amused by the fact that I got a free ang pau from a random old Chinese man in Tesco ! HAHAHAHA, like a boss~

Then I got home, some relatives from Singapore surprise-visited us, went to Mall 9 eating Baskin Robbins 31, jalan-jalan dekat 24, Ole-Ole, and somewhere. Lastly, we visited my aunt in section 17 and went straight home after. So, here I am. :) Uh, gotta go, got a big day tomorrow~ Woot woot, lator.

-Rosalina.

Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

2011-08-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri !

Raya is tomorrow, and today is the last day of Ramadan. Rasa berat hati pulak, nak tinggalkan bulan Ramadan ni. Anyways, I just got back from the airport, sending one of my relatives to the airport. On my way home, I heard the takbir raya from the surau not far from my house. It was loud and very touching. So I wanted to say, I'm asking for your forgiveness on what I've said, what I've done, how I acted like a total jerk and for all of my sarcastic remarks to each and any one of you. I'm sorry for everything and wished for our friendships to last. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri again ! :)

And Selamat Hari Merdeka yang ke-54 !

-Rosalina

Tragic.

2011-08-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Something just came up this evening. He got into an accident with another friend of mine and his as well. A part of me wants to laugh, another part of me wants to beat the hell of them for being stupid, and another part of me was..concern and mostly mixed up. I'm pretty glad that they're both A-okay and had minor injuries.

Mm-hm, I see that lots of people had been asking, and wondering. I'm not saying a word, let's just say that I only shared with people whom I trusted the most and that they will never tell anyone about it. Zip you mouth, shut it all out. I don't want the history to repeat itself. Ever. Again. Privacy should remain private, not to share with others. Especially on a social network such as Facevook or even Twitter. Here, it's just a thought of mine. My opinion. With an S.

-Rosalina.

3D'S Reunion ?

2011-08-22T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hi :)

Last Friday night, I had an awesome break fasting at Secret Recipe with a few of my close friends. Feels like some sort of a reunion and, it was fun. One of the best nights in my life so far. I've missed each and everyone of them, deeply. It's been such a long time that we haven't hangout like this anymore. Everybody grown up :') After break fast at SR in SACC, all of us went to PAS for three games of bowling. Dalia and I were the last remaining girls there with ze boys. Haha, here's the pictures !

-Rosalina

Anugerah Cemerlang Ko-Kurikulum SMKSSAAS 2011 !

2011-08-16T22:18:00.000+08:00

Hi !

Today I got my certificate for being excellence in my co-curriculum ! Yay for me :D Finally, after four years in PKBM (L), I finally get the position of being Leading Bravo which is the fourth position in PKBM (L). It was great, the memories and the friendship I created. Through good and bad times, it was pretty much worth it. Next year, I am going to be the Chief Petty Officer which is the highest position and I will be in charged of handling the kids who're in PKBM (L). Truth to be told, I am pretty much not ready to accept this position, 'cause I'm still in the learning process. I will have to lead them, teach them, discipline all the values in them.. Never thought it would such a hard thing to think about.

Welp, that's all for today ! I had some other things to do right now, this will be a quick update from me. Later !

-Rosalina

When life gives you lemons, make lemonades.

2011-08-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

:)
Fasting month is here ! I'm glad that I can celebrate Ramadan along with my family this year. But it only lasts for four days due to certain circumstances. As it is in fasting month, I'm having a third exam in my school as well. You know, this exam week is pretty much a happy week for me :) It's the first time that I've enjoyed the time I had with some of my classmates. No, seriously, I mean it. At some point, where I'm at the state of my own mind, I'm pretty much thinking that...why should I befriend with someone who doesn't even want to be friend with me ? I mean why bother myself with being friends with such types like that ? All my life, and the problems that I'm dealing with, it involves mostly about my 'friends'. Not that I'm talking trash about them, but yeah. LOL, this is the fasting month, an honorable month, the month that we must do good deeds to get Allah's s.w.t blessings. I just felt the need of telling the truth.

Today, sarcasm dominates most of myself. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me, it just slips out. Of course, not to mention I do realize that I hurt some people's feelings. I felt guilty all of a sudden. Oh gosh, what have I doneeee -___-

History was fucking hard -__- It sort of drives me crazy and uhhh. Tomorrow, I'll be having Mathematics, ICT and Civics papers. Ugh studying...... Later.

-Rosalina

Sick bastard.

2011-07-23T02:02:00.000+08:00

Hey, it's 1 56 AM in the morning and I just finished my ICT written assignment on Word. Just a quick update from me. Recently, my red with cartoon cow-printed Faber Castell pencil box had been stolen since Tuesday 19/07/2011. I was really pissed off and it's almost been a fucking week now. I really can't study without my pencil box and I felt like wanna cast a spell on whoever just stole it. What a great disappointment, even my friend next door lost his hand phone. Zaaba building now has a thief lurking around. I'm so gonna kick this bastard and get my pencil box back, I don't really care about what people think. So, tomorrow I had this writing workshop at MSU college near Giant supermarket. Hope everything goes well for me and my buddies tomorrow :) Welp, gotta get some sleep. Later !

-Rosalina

I need to know where I stand.

2011-07-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

Peace be upon you,

"Ughhhhhhhh"

It's midnight and tomorrow's Tuesday and here's a freakin' picture of my annoyed-being-hair-plucked-by-me cat.

Me, as usual, sleeping late as if I'm a nocturnal animal but I'm a human so what the heck. Yesterday, was Choir Competition and it was held in Subang Parade and my buddy participate in along with some of her classmates and I actually went to support her. Singing, it was her first time singing, her parents were there too, along with her sister and cousin. I came alone and the minute I step out of the car, I saw those pink baju kurung people stepping out from their bus. Haha, I immediately approached them with awkwardness feeling. Yeah, s'posedly I had to go to Subang Parade with Bruno Mars but my dad wanted to drop me off while on their way to Seremban. For the wedding.

And so, nothing happened much just like any other hanging-out-with-buddies day except the fact that people thought me and Bruno-dude over there were together. Aha, that was a very awkward moment indeed for both of us. Me, especially. Okay anyway, at the end of the day I went back with Dalia and her sister and cousin. It was a tiring day because I walk too much. I think. And I felt sorry for him because I didn't blabla-ing with him as much because when I'm with my girlfriends, I'll be pretty much a different person ahha. Guilt. Okay. Well, I uh, sleep. Yeah, later. Ruff ruff !

-Rosalina

Um.

2011-07-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

-Rosalina

We are broken.

2011-07-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

"Are you okay ? Do you need help ? You want me to accompany you ? Are you feeling alright ? All okay, and nothing's wrong ? "

These are the kind of questions I rarely even got or being asked to. Yeah, I admit, I do feel kind of unimportant to everyone I knew. Right now, I think....I barely even know myself anymore. The only part of me that I let people see is the part where I use sarcasm the whole time. In order to protect myself from being hurt by some asshole arrogant friends or even guys. I had this thick wall, built inside of me and uh it helped me a lot. People who knows me might see me as a happy person, who likes to hit people in the arm and mostly poke their stomach and some shit. But that's just me. I'm being myself, I had enough of criticism when I was a younger me. I mean, I actually live my whole life listening to what people say and not stand up for myself. I kinda regret that, now that I'm 16 and still growing. There are some facts about me that I haven't posted in here so here's one of 'em :

I hate stupid questions when the obvious answer is in front of them.
Reason behind them :I just don't like it, if you're gonna ask me some of that, I'm gonna hit you with my sarcasm and pissed you off like, literally. Don't you dare. I might even shouted at you or scolded you with my annoying ass voice.

It just gets to me, I kinda felt hurt where else people treated my friends differently than how they treated me. They think that I'm fucking useless or some retard who doesn't know anything. I despise people who think they know everything just because they had a different life than I am. Some people just don't understand, they just don't get it. Is it me or the society around me is getting fucked up ? I don't usually open up my personal matter to people, I would most likely to think that my problems would burden them. So I just kept it all inside. People had their own problems, they would've ignore the shit outta me, too. I treated people how they treated me. So, I ended up being hated and I would not realize things evolved around me. This is bullshit, I sometimes questions my existence. It's not that I'm not grateful to the life that Allah s.w.t gave me, I do. I just...I don't know. Things aren't the way they were before. I wanted to be appreciated, to actually make someone proud of. Guess that I'll never be good enough.

You wouldn't like to be left alone, nobody does. Everybody deserve to be loved.

-Rosalina
P.s : I had enough of this bullshit.

Question my insanity.

2011-07-04T23:36:00.001+08:00

Peace be upon you.

Hey, I just got back from mall 9 with Dalia and her sister~ Before that, right after school, me and dodol went to the gymnasium at club Shah Alam near Tesco and doing some exercises. Met some ex-student from SMKSSAAS but I don't think he knows me or something. After been working out for an hour or so, we went to play table tennis and it is my first time playing it, and we had fun hahaha though we played table tennis like a mix of soccer, tennis, badminton, squash and basketball. Haha, it was pretty weird because some people from the club are watching and I was screaming like hell, and both of us were really really loud hahaha not to mention I was really loud at that time.

We stopped playing for a while and decided to stop and went for our cold showers and head off to the entrance to wait for Dalia's sister. I was hungry and at the same time I was beginning to mumble some crap in the car and haha everybody was starting to creep out with me~ I complain like hell lot hahaha and it was my time of the month so I get hungry easily, I know. Lol. Then we stopped by Tesco and I stand in the trolley where there got a little tray at the top section and the lower section got this flat but bouncy-type of thingy I don't know. Haha people were watching, and I don't give a damn, I was even barely being myself and all I think was food. I ended up playing Kak Ika's iPad the Taptap Revenge all by myself. Haha and then they decided not to shop and I was like..... --_-- haha so yeah. We left and went straight to mall 9. Having our dinner at the chicken rice shop, loving their wantons and sluriping their awesome iced lemon tea... ahhh, so refreshing mannnn. I almost get brain freeze from drinking on too much and too fast. Then, here I am. Home and I felt like sleeping and I'm so freakin' tired as hell. Uhhhhhhhhhhhh, but Tumblr's keeping me awake so I'm kinda distracted by it. Welp, I just wanna go...yeah. Haha later~

-Rosalina

BOTB SMKSSAAS 29/06/2011.

2011-07-01T13:43:00.001+08:00

Hi, first of all, I wanted to mention in here, that I fucking suck because me and the rest of my band mates went competing against some other bands in our school on our Entrepreneur Day. And there's this problems.

1. I am literally voiceless at the moment.
2. I forgot the lyrics and all of it was jumbled and I kinda blurted out loud on the microphone.
3. People are watching my band performing on the stage.
4. Syazwan forgot his solo on Only One song.
5. My voice cracks as I sing on the high note.
6. I FUCKING SUCK.

But at the end of the day, we all finished performing and just..run away from the hall by the backstage's door and went to our stall near by the hall. Ugh, this is the most embarrassing thing in my life. At least I finally have the gut to perform in front of the audience........anyways, we did our best and there's always next year, next time. We will keep on practicing, by the way, it's out first time on stage :)

Entrepreneur Day was awesome ! Even if I had to sit in the Hall for what seem like hours but I get to enjoy some of the things on the day. I went to Wall climbing twice, Paintball twice, went to the Form 6's haunted house that was meant to be scary but unfortunately not for me but, they have some awesome details on their faces and scenes, that, totally impressed me. And then I bought some water for my thirsty throat and that's it. Then all of us gathered at the hall for the lucky draw contest and the BOTB winners....we didn't won. I expected already of it. Haha, no luck for us I guess. Over all, I think it is, indeed, a good day for me :) And here's the pictures.

Welp, gotta go. Will write in here, later.

-Rosalina

Insecurities.

2011-06-11T14:52:00.000+08:00

"I don't give a fuck if you don't like me. Just don't go around to everyone with my name in your mouth.". Well, I found that on my second blog and yeah bitch, I'mma tell the whole world about this 'cause I don't give a fuck. Yeah, I just want to mention this on my blog, nothing much. About the recent post down here, is some song that I related with, so much at the moment. If you don't mind reading the translation. Yeah it's a Korean song from one of my most favorite band ever besides MCR :3 and the members of BIGBANG had their solos so the song is one of Daesung's. And his voice is so.......gah :D I don't know, haha at this one moment I cried like a hell a lot because of the song. Heh, I was pretending that he was dedicating the song to me. Okay let's talk about some other stuffs.

The two weeks holiday is coming to an end. Ugh, I don't really looking forward towards school and I pretty much despise them. I've got to deal with all the retards in my class, the bitches, the fakers, everything. I admit, it's not really a great feeling after all. I realize that some of my 'friends' didn't even like having me around them so why bother ? I don't care with who I'm friends with 'cause after all of these years, I've became like some group's followers or some shit. And I don't want that. I just wanna be friends with all of people without having some people tell me that, that guys is a slut, don't be friends with 'em. That girl is fucking ugly, no. No. NO. NO. I get to do what I wanna do. Even in making decisions for what's best for me. Until I really really know someone's background and then I decide whether I wanted be be friends with them, or not. Because, even if you said that person is such a slut, I see you people talking to them and eventually making friends with them. IT'S LIKE YOU PEOPLE JUST STOLE A FRIEND FROM ME AND THAT AIN'T COOL. AT. ALL. Even the worse kind of people still have that nicest thing about them okay, just fucking grow up for god's sake. It's not that I'm blaming people for some certain things. It's just how they act around people who they don't even know really well and just decides to judges them anyway. I know some kind of people said that don't judge a book by its cover. Still, they judges anyways. So this is the current society. It's sucks. Real bad. I just don't understand.

-Rosalina

Some song.

2011-06-10T14:59:00.001+08:00

“Baby Don’t Cry” – Daesung

Translation:
네가 울고있다 해도
달라질것 없다고
You said even if you are crying,
nothing will change.

지금 네가 없다진다 해도
달라질것 없다고
You said even if you are gone,
nothing will change.

하지만 왜 넌 울고있니?
마지막처럼 눈을 감고있니
But why are you crying?
Why are you closing your eyes as if this was the end?

다 지난 일이잖아 이제 웃어봐
Everything is in the past, now smile.

[chorus]
수많은 사람들 떠나가도 이 노랜 영원해 네곁에 (함께할꺼야)
그 많던 친구들 다 떠나도 여기 난 네옆에 계속 서있을거야
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
언젠가 꼭 빛날꺼야 give me your smile
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
한번만 더 날 위해 just give me your smile
[chorus]
Even though many people will leave you, this song will stay with you forever (we’ll do it together)
Even if many friends all leave you, I’ll continue to stand here by your side.
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
Someday you will surely shine, give me your smile
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
one more time for me just give me your smile

[two missing lines here]
내가 알고있는 너의 좋은점
넌 그걸 제일 잘 알잖아
The good stuff that I know about you,
you know them the best.

하지만 왜 넌 울고있니?
세상이 끝날것처럼 눈 감고있니
But why are you crying?
Why are you closing your eyes as if this was the end?

지난 일이잖아 이렇게 질수없잖아 안그래
Everything is in the past, we can’t just do nothing like this, right?

[chorus x2]
Even though many people will leave you, this song will stay with you forever (we’ll do it together)
Even if many friends all leave you, I’ll continue to stand here by your side.
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
Someday you will surely shine, give me your smile
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
one more time for me just give me your smile

-Rosalina

Big Bang's oldest Hyung.

2011-06-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

HEHEHEHEHEHEH, wazzap everybody~ Recently, I've been drawn back into KPOP music again. Wah, after a year with no KPOP addiction and now...I'm back again ! With my all-time-favorite boy band, BIG BANG ! I don't know why, but they're like my own version of Korean My Chemical Romance EVENTHOUGH, they had no similarity between them. I said earlier so there would be NO, I repeat, NO MISUNDERSTANDING. Yeah, just to make everything clear. TEEHEE,

Kay, skip to part where I, had done something so amazing in my entire life ! AKJHSDLASHKLFHKLHASKLHAS I'M FEELIN' SO ENTHUSIAST ABOUT IT AND I CAN STOP MYSELF FROM TYPING IN CAPS. GASKHFJAS GAHAHAHAHHAHA. Okay, sorry bout that, okay. Okaaaay.

I just drew a picture of T.O.P from BIGBANG. For the people who fancied South Korean Boy bands, they'll know who he is. A handsome man with amazing deep voice and charisma. Dat eyebrows, damnnn. Haha, wanna see the picture ? Kays,

LOL ME WITH T.O.P HEHEHEH

Is it okay ? :) By the way, I didn't manage to draw his arms, there's not much space left. Yah, if only I drew it a little smaller. What ever, I love it~

Yeah well, haha I tried, but I think I did a good job on this. Heh, my first time tho, drawing a person. That I admire. So much. In my life. Ahhh, life is good. Damn I can't stop thinking how good it is hehehehheehe. Kay, I know there're so many talented people than me. Haha but I don't fuckin' care :D Trolololol. Welp, guys, I had to go. I just don't know what to write anymore, and I promise to update soon ! Laters ~

-Rosalina
P.S : I LOVE T.O.P. TABI. HYUNGIE. AGH

Kuih Goyang or Loyang or whatever.

2011-05-30T13:14:00.002+08:00

Sup, peeps ? Sorry for not updating this blog frequently, I'm having some trouble to log in and stuffs. So, recently, I'd finished my mid-terms examination last Thursday, and it was going pretty well except for my Additional Mathematics paper 2. Damn, it was pretty much hard, I only answered 4 questions or so. Lol, I am sooooo gonna get bad results, or decent results. Enough about school, now, its about the holidays ~ Today's Monday and one week left before the school is open again. I really had nothing to do on holidays except from lounging on the couch, watching TV and surfing the Internet most of the time. Most of it, I had plans for some days......ugh what a boring week.

RIGHT NOW
I'm making Kuih Goyang with my mom and frying it for the first time, amazes me. I don't know why but I'm pretty much excited for it. F.Y.I, Kuih Goyang is some kind of traditional Malay pastry, and my grandma always making it, occasionally. Lol. Here's the pictures and the oh-so-steps on how to fry it, HAHA.

First, we extract the oil from the pencetak.

Then, we dip the pencetak into the pastry thingy haha (broken English :D)

Then we fry it until the pastry loosens up from the pencetak and finally let it fry until its golden brown ~

And there you go ! Kuih Goyang :D

Heheheheh, how cool is that yo :D Wait until you make it yourself, with the sizzling noises mmmmm. Ahaha, well, I gotta go help my mum cooking. Have a great day, err'body ! I'll be updating this blog soon :) Later.

-Rosalina

Longing for adventure.

2011-05-08T13:17:00.000+08:00

Sup ? Haven't updated in a while. And today's Mother's Day ! I haven't wished mum yet, I don't know how to wish to her so....maybe tonight or something. Hahaa, she already knows that today is Mother's Day and she was like, 'Come and help me with lunch!' Haha, I see nothing's wrong with that, so okay. I'll help :3 You know what, I love my mom. I love her so much, more than anything in this world. She's freakin' awesome, she's great in everything, especially cooking and giving out ideas. She's very good at listening and advices haha even though most of the times I pretty much dislike it, heheh. Seeing her through thick and thin for all of these years, made me realize that it was hard being a mom. I wonder when I was older and probably married, maybe it would be harder that I thought. Like, raising a child needs money, paying bills and the taxes needs money, apparently, everything costs money and money.. Yeah well, I'd have to work and right now, I'm still in he process of learning and searching for my own identity. Hopefully in the future, everything will goes out fine. At least for now.

MID-TERM/YEAR EXAMINATION STARTING THIS THURSDAY !
Ugh sucks though, I'm having my mid-term/year exam for about three weeks and it's taking up the whole month. And luckily, after the exams are finished, all of the students of SMKSSAAS will be having a two-weeks off from school. And dayum, the teachers will be giving out a lot of CUTE homeworks. (Cute Terancang activities or exercises or some shit) Ughhhhhhhh, I don't care anymore. Reward after a good revison ? HOLIDAYS ~ I wish I would be more prepared for the exam than the last time. I don't really looking forward towards failure in any of the class I'm taking. Insya-Allah. Fiuh ! Gah I'm gonna go eat now. i can smell the fresh baked bread from the oven that my mom made just now. hhihihi, Chiao for now ! Later, I mean.

-Rosalina

Verge.

2011-05-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

Waddup y'all. Lol, I don't even think that people ever read my blog. Aha, anyways, I'm here to just share one of my favorite band ever here with you and other people and stuffs. So, I have been all over this band for like, three years I guess. Since 2009, is it three years ? I think so...... Well, the band's called There For Tomorrow, and I see that some of my Facebook acquaintances is digging one of their musics and that makes me a little proud eheh. Oh, and I haven't heard from them since last year, and now they're making a new album called 'The Verge' and I'm pretty much excited about it. Just by listening to their teaser video that Maika post on Twitter, ughhh it was a little tempting. Haha I'll go all crazy just by listening to his freakin' guitar and drums and all. And damn, every single one of them has grown up. Haha, I remember when they look all kiddy and cutie like this :

And this,

Lol to this too,

HAHAHAHAHA lol sorry hehe love you guys ♥♥♥

Then to these hot ass sexy motherfuckers :

I mean look at Chris, he got abs like AKLSHFLASH and Christian, well he had a haircut recently and have been looking magnificent as always, hahaha ♥ Kay sorry for being a fangirl over here, I'm a little enthusiastic so get over it. Teehee, my love for this band over the years will never die :) Welp, gotta go~ Later.

-Rosalina

Victorious.

2011-04-13T17:13:00.001+08:00

Hi, I'm having a fever, which due to a non-stop sneezing on Monday at school. Ugh, and a sore throat. But now I'm getting better, from time to time. And skipped school today. Lol, I realized that tomorrow's my birthday. Ha, I don't know why, 'cause I'm pretty nervous for it. Weird, I know. So, tomorrow's the day, and maybe I'm coming to school or whatever. Expecting nothing out of it. It's just a normal day at school. Just like any other day. I really don't have much to say, 'cause I'm still sick and blurry and all. Anyways, highlights of today is....the wishlist. Lol, common thing to do. Haha just saying~

Ready for my wishlist ? Lol.

Camera some cool camera, not that DSLR cameras just some camera with some cool features that I can use to capture some pictures.
Shoes, lol I've always wanted a pair of heels or something like that. But I'm already tall so...yeah haha.
Clothes and accessories and girls stuffs.
An iPod, the blue/red/purple one.
Fibe/Flo to just wish me happy birthday just like two years ago :)
Money. Ngeheh
Starbucks beverages.

Yeh, that's about it, it's pretty usual 'cause I already got the best thing everyone could ever wanted, family and friends. Not more than that. But I would like for that to happen (refers to the number 5) Eheh. Saja nak menggedik ~ Later.

-Rosalina

Gerard Arthur Way,

2011-04-09T16:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY FREAKING 34th BIRTHDAY, BABY ♥♥♥

You have no idea how many songs that you wrote have inspired me. You and all of your band mates have been giving me hopes through thick and thin. You taught to be strong and don't ever give a shit to anyone who doesn't worth your time. Hell, you even make a comic book, you're a true artist. You express yourself through music and taught me that being cool is not the best thing in the world. You taught not to judge anyone. About love, feelings, to keep on going and fight for your heart...there's so much more about you that is absolutely amazing. I love you, man. And have a fucking-tastic birthday !

-Rosalina

SSAAS DRUM CORPS at S.O.X Drum & Dance Battle

2011-04-08T22:08:00.001+08:00

How awesome is that man ? :D

Everybody lies.

2011-04-08T13:13:00.001+08:00

Ha, here I am again. Feeling all depressed and stuffs. Usually I just wrote it on my story book by making up stories that related to 'em. But I stopped writing because I had no inspiration around. Just those boring shit and same cycle and habits everyday. There's nothing fun about it, either. Why do I feel like this ? Is this what I call life ? Because people I know, all of had pretty much fun things to do, besides surfing the Internet. *sigh* And I haven't been writing on this blog for some quite time, I used to blog every interesting things that happened in my life and actually feel great about it. But now, it's like people have been invading my privacy and will use it against me. It's no fun anymore. What have this world done to me ? I mean like, did the world just turn its back on me or did I just turn my back on the world ? I've never felt so self-conscious in my whole life. This just sucks, real bad.
Well, being ignored, useless, insecure, unwanted, left out....all of those factors are common to me. I don't know why, lol but I just feel that way. Thinking about the past is a scary thing to do, because we never knew what could happened. Maybe we died in an accident, maybe the world's going to end. We don't know. We just don't know it. It's all in Allah's hands, Nothing scares me more than just thinking about it. I wonder what it feels like, dying... and seeing things that other people can't see when we're dying. It's just, terrifying.
I want to be happy. I need to be happy. I have to be happy. I have to work it out on myself. I'm not fishing anybody to give me some attention. I feel like I'm the only one who's trying to communicate with people. I'm the only one who tries, harder than anyone. But, I see now. *snickers* People don't always appreciate what others done for them. All they think about is themselves. They're so full of themselves, and just can't get over it. You try to be polite and humorous but ended up being bitchy and sarcasm is the language you use. But yeah well, whatever happens, tends to happens anyways. I'm done with being miserable. I wanna be happy. I earned that.

-Rosalina

Ba-dum-tss.

2011-04-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

Anybody see me ? :D

Went to S.O.X Drum & Dance Battle at Mont Kiara skate park today :) Hella fun man, SSAAS Drum Line made it to the finals and beat other school's drum line which is quite good with beats. I scream and shouted out loud till my throat hurts. And now I can barely speak haha but still, I have my voice. It was awesome and I can't wait to go to the finals and support my school's marching band :)

SEMANGAT KESUKANAN !

At the end of the day me, Airil and Daniel went to OU and hanging around there, haha and everybody went back to their home lulz. Not my throats and all the muscles in my body is aching, I wanna go to sleep. And I apologize about not updating my blog. Been busy and lazy lately :) Later.

-Rosalina

(Photos courtesy of S.O.X Facebook page)

2011-03-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

If I let you in, you'd just want out.

If I tell you the truth, you'd vie for a lie.
If I spill my guts, it would make a mess we can't clean up.
If you follow me, you will only get lost.
If you try to get closer, we'll only lose touch.
Yet, you already know too much, and you're not going anywhere.

Set yourself on fire.

2011-03-17T16:41:00.000+08:00

So, Bring Me The Horizon has set out the release of Blessed With A Curse video music. So far, it's only a teaser and gonna be out in 22nd March. Damn, it's only five days away and I can't wait for it. I noticed that there're some meaningful words in this song, and it just gets to me. Ha yeah, y'know I can't deal with meaningful songs, it's just too meaningful, lol. The songs in their new album, 'There's A Hell, Believe Me I've Seen It, There's A Heaven Let's Keep It A Secret' was freakin' great even though when they perform live and I mean, the band is good but Oli turns out to be not good. Yeah, he used to screaming and now he's like, yelling. Well, I see some changes but I don't care much. So here's the teaser ! :) Enjoy.

-Rosalina

Something to share with or not.

2011-03-06T20:28:00.002+08:00

Ignore the picture above, I just love them :)

Okay so here's the thing. I've been thinking a lot lately. Of what I wanted to do with my life after/during school years, by the end of this year, I want to get a job, probably in Secret Recipe or Memory Lane at SACC. That's the least workplace that is nearby my home. I do think about is it going to be great having a work ? Earning money from your own hard work like your parents did for you since you were little until now ? And actually felt satisfy by spending your money because you own it by your own hard work. Maybe some of the people never live a hard life like I do some of the time but yeah. Try live in your parents' shoes and imagine what it looks like to be. You may have an awesome gadgets from the latest season, clothes that is so simple yet so expensive and a smart phone that only business people uses it and live in a big house, but some people work their asses off to get that. We're still kids, and pretty most of the time we rebel just to get what we wanted. And our parents just had to reject your wishes and maybe your intention to go out with your friends. I know teens, most of the teenagers want to like, explore the whole world, and maybe some malls around the country, searching for their identity in what they want to be when their older. But hey, it's just an opinion in my head by me, seeing the world by my way. And the picture above of my favorite band doesn't have anything to do with any of all this. Just a picture. That I love. Yeah, well gotta go. Later.

-Rosalina

Blues and hues.

2011-03-04T22:40:00.001+08:00

2010, Lapangan Sasar Kem Sg. Besi.

Wazzap just got back from school. And guess what ? I've got a position in my marching squad ehehehe. But as a Leading Bravo. Like hey, haha at least ada jawatan ehehe. Lol, Firdaus got a role as a chief. I was like pretty shocked haha, he was right about being a chief last year..and he need to learn to how to be a leader. Y'know, he's a little soft and all hahaha. Not, gay soft, just soft. Lol he might read this or whatever haha hope he doesn't mind.

Okay, next week all of the SMKSSAAS students are having their first exam, including me which starts on Monday till Wednesday. Four subjects in a day, now how intense is that ? Haha, even in my Additional Mathematics and Modern Maths are equally hard, I practically can't keep up with it. To be honest, actually I've been taking helium gas haha from Teena's party and it sorta..affect on my brains. Yeah it was fun, hearing my voice sounded like the chipmunks and I overtake it or something. Haha, plus the head injury that I had while on my way home with the guys. Lol, I'm so lkahfklafhoa-ish ugh. Haha, today at school was fine I guess. I was half-awake and sleepy most of the time but managed to not sleep in the class haha like yesterday :|

My second blog is being a bitch with their over-capacity of some ugh-ish users who think it's a trend of having 'em. I don't like it. Haha I despise it. I have no privacy because there some people I know are on that site and I can't even express my feelings without getting anybody hurt but hey, they have to deal with anyways. Blah, I don't want to talk about it. I haven't blog in months and was busy in co-curricular and curricular activities and I felt like AUISGHFASKF explode. Yeah, I apologize for my sudden eruption or something I don't even know I just babble on something random and I see that I will never put a full stop until I feel like to stop lol I like popsicle. Haha, yeah well. I had my homeworks in front of me, my parents are away for the night and my brother is back for three days off from the campus and just now, my cat Bob, he just um, how to say this, uh, he just push a cup that I put on a little table and it crashed on the floor. Ugh, messy mess. Yeah, I had to go, studying or watching tv or something. Okay, study....while watching tv. Bye. I mean later.

-Rosalina

'Cause good times never stop.

2011-02-14T16:45:00.003+08:00

Last Saturday, Teena had a birthday party for her sweet sixteen. It was fun, and it was the best birthday party I've ever been so far. 'Cause everybody that was invited to her birthday party, we're all pretty much know each other and everybody was being spontaneous. Yeap. I don't want to babble, here's the pictures.

-Rosalina

Tremble.

2011-02-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

Haha, hey. Just wanna show off that me and my parents hanging out with this veteran actor by the name of Anjang Aki or Baharuddin Omar. A neighbor of mine from another street, yo. Haha. My dad was busy telling me to go and take a picture with him. Ugh, remember the time where I told you guys about the Rao thingy yesterday ? This is at a friend of his where we all had dinner at. The food was good tho :o Welp, gotta go, later ~

-Rosalina

Boom boom blom.

2011-02-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hello, for the past of few days, I had dome some recent activities with my friends and family. Which is :

Hanging out with Miera and The Frankies at Mall 9, went to walking around the Cash Converters and then went to Miera's Home for games of Guitar Heroes Band and some other stuffs :) I starting to missing her.
Went to Ipoh to accompany my parents and their friend for some society called 'Persatuan Orang Rao'. I don't know why I came with them. And got to eat some delicious dinner at some my parents' friend's house. Omg, I love the lamb curry, eventho I didn't like lamb :D

Lol, that;s all. Haha, besides homework of Additional Maths and Modern Maths, I pretty much finish it up by time. OKAY, HAHA. Time for the best part of the day. Today, I mean.

So, I was back from a jam session which is so fucking boring and a waste of time with Noh, Mirzan, Syazwan and Meor. After all of the jamming, Meor and I went to MCD to get some food because I was hungry while Syazwan and Mirzan waited outside. We get our food and went straight to the Section 2 Lake and hanging out there. The boys were playing this stupid jumping-across the lake or something I don't even know. I was busy eating and laughing with them. Haha long story short, I saw a set of swings and I ran towards 'em. And then when I'm not aware, Mirzan stole my freakin' seat. And I went alone to play the other swing. Hahaha, I don't know, as i was swingin', I saw the boys were jumping off of them and I was like unaware of my situation that I'm on a swing and I fell down. FELL FUCKING DOWN. With my feet slipped on the sand, my hand stuck to the chains and my head hit against the concrete floor..and I screamed 'adoi' very loudly. And the boys were the ones who saw everything.

I'm fucked, hahahhaha. They're gonna tell everyone about everything. And screw Syazwan for telling a person about it. Hahaha, damn you. Lol and then we hanging out at the park till 5 30 pm and walked back to the school. That's just pretty much it. Haha, you'll know it by tomorrow the day Mirzan told everybody about this. Yeap. Well gotta go, later.

-Rosalina

Whoopty-fucking-do.

2011-01-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

Attempt 1, to do a fishtail braid/plait (fail)

Attempt 2, success doing a fishtail braid/plait

Waddup everybody, those pictures up there is me, trying to do a fishtail braid'plait. By watching a tutorial on Youtube earlier I have finally made it by several attempts. I'm not in a good mood. So, braiding helps me recover. I gotta go eat something. Maybe cook myself something 'cause my parents are away for the night. Later.

-Rosalina

Stutters.

2011-01-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hey guys. I'm home-alone once again. My parents went to Sg. Buloh earlier that noon and still. It's 11 30 pm now--Oh they're here. Lol, I had to offline soon and get back to my homeworks. BM..I haven't finished my BM homeworks about minor characters in 'Papa' novel. Shit.
-ten minutes later-
Oh, I went on a research about the KOMSAS Papa novel just now. I managed to print out the minor characters' characteristics and later on the night I'll be working out on an essay about them :) I actually have a pretty good memory I guess. Except with numbers. I think I have photographic memory or something. Oh wait, I don't :| Just searched through Google. Lol, I don't even know what it means. School has been good, I can concentrate on few of my subjects. Just that it needs time and focus and lots of hard work. We have to be diligent all the time so that things would get easier in knowledge.
Oh, my ICT teacher said something about 'respect' three days ago. It really hits me somehow. Something about you should respect people so they will respect you too. It's true, but I don't really get it, sometimes. And, if you don't then you will feel neglected. I already have. AND, When you were being neglected, people have lost respect in you. People will not care in everything little things you do, like they used to. People will think of you, as some useless and they won't even know you exist anymore.
They just, think that, talking to you would be an utter waste of time. Nothing important about me, for everyone to know, is it ? You know, I only have a little amount of people that I can trust with. I know, for now it's not easy to trust people these days but I have to. Now, I don't really care of what people think of me anymore. I just don't wanna think about it. I'd better focus on my studies rather some empathetic friends who were being my 'friends' and just faking all along in front of me. I'm tired, really. Since I was 10. Honestly. I've learned from my experience with people's bullshits and their fakeness. I can't tell everybody what my secrets are anymore like I used to. I don't know how to make a topic while talking to anyone, I'm such a boring person. I'm so insecure. Suddenly my buddies are not my buddies anymore, and everybody starts hating me as well. Is this just a negative thoughts of mine or is it just reality that hits me in the face ?
I want to start a new life with new possibilities, I'm not the only one, my family does. Everyone might feel the same as I do. I know it will never be enough. Not for now.
You see, when things get in my head sometimes and I don't have anyone to talk to..I come here. Blogging instead of actually talking. I never talk about my feelings, about whats in my mind/heart. Never, nada. Not a single thing. I generally don't have the need to tell people, so I just kept all of these facts and store it in my heart. And wait for it to be blurted out. This is no excuse. That is why I prefer to be a lone ranger, like my Fluffy. But of course, I need friends too. But they just...I just don't know what to say anymore. There's nothing more that I could say. Zero.
Why do I always have to end each of my post with such a sad depressing pathetic ending ? Lol, ask anybody who knows. Wait, nobody does.
Gotta go, later.

-Rosalina

I AM NOW..cooler than you. wait, make it..awesome

2011-01-13T16:46:00.000+08:00

So far, this is my pretty-much first post so, I'm gonna make it look not-so-awkward. For the past eight days, I've been getting some kind of stomach problem. Last week, on 5th and 6th January, I didn't come to school because of that. Met some new and a lot of old classmates so its pretty easy to get along with. Just now, the classes are all have been rescheduled due to some of the students who wanted to changes classes of their own choices. I pretty much stayed, nothing much. I didn't have many friends tho, With guys, yeah I can get along with. With girls, I don't know. That's how I am, I guess. Really need to be friendly towards people. There's a lot of new students, even people from other schools started to flooding SSAAS. Which is, pretty much disturbing. I don't know why, thats how I feel. Heheh. Well, I'm in a lazy mood. Later.

-Rosalina

HAPPY NEW YEAR, BITCHES !

2011-01-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

So hai :) It's 01/01/2011 today and I ain't feelin' anything cool yet because tomorrow's the last day of my holiday and everything will get back to normal --which is me, getting back to school and gonna be sixteen in the next three months and I had the feeling that this is probably gonna be a lucky year for me, perhaps-- which will be : studying, watching tv, onlining, not able to go out once in a while and some time for me to be spent at home. And later on whenever I went back from school, I will automatically went into my bed and sleep till 4 or 6 in the afternoon. Bad habit, I know.

So this year's resolutions.. I haven't figured it out yet so.. just wait for me. Kay ? Gotta go, later and

HAPPY NEW YEAR OF 2011 !

-Rosalina

Paralyzed.

2010-12-26T23:37:00.003+08:00

Hey ya people, last Thursday was the day I took my results. I am absolutely not happy with it. At all. But, mom and dad said it's okay, at least you got an A and you must work harder next year. Down to two more years in school, and I'm out to..the university or probably a college or something. If, I'm lucky enough. After got all the results and got home after meeting with some friends and everything, I went straight into my room and just sit on the bed. I feel so..I don't know. Mixed feelings, like I've lost a freaking part of my self and never can find it back.
--
I haven't bought the books and the school uniform yet. It feels quite a while now and time goes so fast. I'd thought about moving away. Haha, like anybody cares if I'm gone or not, it's all up in their faces. To be frank, I know that none of the people here likes me so I don't really care much. I was hoping to start up a fresh new life. For me and my family. We're all tired of this bullshits that happening to us everyday. With people and neighbors talking behind our backs, and all the bitches bitchin' about us. It's like, hater gonn' hate after all. And I see how they treat other people besides me. I'm standing in front of them, and all they do was like, 'oh hey' and just heheh and looked away, pullin' some faces out. Hahahaha, fuck that. You think I don't see all that ? You think I'm blind or some sort ? Whatever man, just, fucking whatever. I'm tired of people's bullshits and their fucking fake attitudes towards me. Yeah, I might be an ass and all of that. I'm just being myself, I'm tired of changing for people and becoming for what I don't wanna be. You just have to face it.

-Rosalina

Bloody hell.

2010-12-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hi, I've just got back from my village at Kedah because we have a wedding to attend to ; my aunt's wedding. It was animated and a little fun I supposed. Theme is purple and white but I see my aunt wearing a purple Dracula-like wedding dress, with her makeup and all. Honestly, -sorry to say this- the makeup is....er, too much. I think. But, what ever, as long as they're happy together :) My aunt is like, a cheerful-kind of person and the guy is, well, he looks blank or something like that. Hahaha, I don't know what to say, tho. Can't seem to find the exact words, tho. Lol, anyway, I spot one or two guys which is good looking, hehe as always. They're both don't look like teachers, tho. They're both looked like students from some University or somewhere. Gaaaah, can't stop looking tho.

-SKIP-

We decided to wen home at 5 45 PM afterwards, and grammy seems a little sad because we -the whole family- never got back to our hometown for almost three years. Hate that the matter of fact, that there are some problems we couldn't avoid. Very sorry, tho. And we said goodbye to each other, to the cousins, the aunts and uncles, everybody that we know and yeah. We got our stuffs which is stuffs from the wedding haha souvenirs and all that. We said goodbye to the newly weds, tho. AND I, HAVE FOUND OUT THAT MY TOKNJANG IS A FREAKIN' PHOTOGRAPHER. Dayum, his freakin' camera is as big as my freakin' head. And I just realized that my face..is..big. Yeah. Big. Big ol' face and that. :|

AND THEN,

While on our way, we're still in Ipoh and it's like, 8 20 PM like that, we're stucked in a jam. And there's like five or six flippin' ambulances rushing through the emergency lane. I was starting to get anxious. And then that's what happened. Our car is sort of broke down and Dad quickly drove into the side of the highway. It was in the middle of the hill and there were no reception for the mobile phone to get through. Fortunately, my aunt and uncle were right behind of us and drove to the side of the road as well. They're trying to help us with the bloody car. It was the brakes, it didn't catch the grip or something. I don't know the words in English, sorry.

And then I saw a car, putting an emergency signals and stops at the side of the road. It was a reporter, with the video camera and a tag on his neck. He quickly look around with amusement on his face and ran to the accident scene. What an asshole. I founded out there's a bus, flipped over into the drain or gaung, twenty-one or four people have been hurt or something like that. And then there's police and the firetrucks as well. I even see a tow-truck past by. Filled with U students, tho. Then, a PLUS worker and some of the patrol ran over the slow moving car came to help us. Hahaha, my mum was in the car when one of the workers trying to test drive the car. It was funny to watch, and oh my gosh it was fucking freezing out here. Dekat bukit bukit en, sejuk macam sial -___- and come to think of it, why is this thing happened to our family ? Hmm.

And finally, we got to drove back to home, the patrol dude said to my dad, that he had to drive slowly because of the bloody brakes. Sucks -__- We had difficulties with the tolls each time we stopped by hahaha lol. And we're home. Haha. That's all, just wanna share with you people out there. So, gotta go. Later !

-Rosalina

Noise and kisses.

2010-12-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

Waddup yaw. I'm here to tell you people that I'm still alive, I ain't dead yet. The reasons that I hadn't been updating this blog is because I probably don't the mood or don't have the time so yeah.

Heres the list of what did I do the past few days and weeks :.

Went to Sunway with Dalio, Miera, Cina, Nina and Ome.
Ice skating and fall once. Shit.
It hurts.
I bought a chunk of gold necklace from Kitschen, I notice it got some elephant on it.
Sitting at home watchin' TV and onlining.
Bored being at home.
Bored being at home.
Went to Dalio's house to discuss class party.
At the end of the day I went Frisbee with her and her sister and then watch her sister's friends playing Frisbee match.
I dream that I had a boyfriend.
That middle of the damn freaking night, somebody pranked call me and practically know who I am and what I'm interest into.
Turns out to be Khairul and his friend named Danial, they were still at MRSM, Alor Gajah. They didn't come back for holiday :|
I miss the rest of my ex-band. I regret pulling myself out of the band as a guitarist, just so I don't want them to be disappointed in me ; I don't know how to play a guitar that time.

And so, that was pretty much everything. I catchup with everything later. So..,later

-Rosalina.

3 DEDIKASI'S CLASS PARTY 2010

2010-12-05T19:44:00.001+08:00

It was last Saturday. I had loads of fun and I guess things went pretty well, though :) I got to Dalio's house at around 3 28 PM and Maryam was already there. Cina couldn't make it because she had a wedding that she and her family had to attend to. So, at first all of us were like, got nothing to do besides talking and laughing like hell. So we all ended up making sandwiches for the guests that were coming that night and then we ordered 3 large pizzas so everybody wouldn't get hungry. Haha, Dalio's mum even sponsered some spaghetti for us.

THAT NIGHT.
Rys was the first one to arrive since she live nearby so, yeah. And then, Meor and Tajul arrived 20 minutes later after Rys arrives and then all the guests starts to arrive as well. I can help but to feel so excited all of a sudden. And then theres this one dude who is a friend of someone I don't know, anddd he's a BBOY. Haha well, okay. I'll upload some pictures, I got bored while writing. :)

Iman looks homeless

Excuse Tajul for his gay face.

Aren't they look sweet together :)

The boys.

Maryam and Cina.

Dalia and me.

The girls :)

Iman, the magnificent blind dude who can play guitar HAHA

This is Arief, the BBOY dude I tell you guys about. Hahahahehe

Iman and me.

ALL EYES ON BAN HAHAH
*I PUT MY HAND UP IN THE AIR SOMETIMES, SAYING AIYOOO WHERE'D MY TACOOOOOOO*

D.R.A.M which is from the right to left :)

My failed attempt to jump -__-

Last but not least, everybody who can come through the night. It’s been a great time with you guys even for one whole year :) I swear this is the best year of my school-life minus the downs. I love you guys ♥

By the clock strucks 10 or five to 11 PM, everybody went home, and we all know that all of us had such a great time all this one year. I really hope we could hangout like this again. Later guys.

-Rosalina.

Well, he's pretty, handsome and awkward.

2010-11-29T23:38:00.004+08:00

Hi, I'm here. Still alive, just don't have the time to blog. The holidays are in, and I don't really go anywhere. Me and my friends are going to Sunway this Wednesday and my class are having a dinner/party at Dalio's house this Saturday. And the theme is OLD SKOOL ! Yeah, I can't wait for it :) I really missed them. But unfortunately, not everyone can go. So, there might be 11 or 15 people who are coming this Saturday. But that's okay, maybe we can catch up with them later. Maybe having a bowl out at the nearby mall, or just hanging out.

Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and ****, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted ****s
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand ****s?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a ****ing knife ....

Up there, is a part of a lyric of I'm A Fake by The Used. I think that's what I'm feeling right now. I don't know what happening to me. I'm feeling.....miserable at best ? Or just plain mixed up ? All these years...I don't know what I've becoming into, I just don't. Last night, I can't sleep till 7a.m in the morning and so on. I guess that my mind and body didn't need some rest even when I on the bed, lying and trying to close my eyes and sleep..still no effect. Nothing. Can somebody just explain to me ? I feel lost, completely. I can't even...*shooks head* I don't know. I don't wanna spend the rest of my life thinking. But that's what I usually do when I'm out of things to do. I can't help the fact that nothing's gonna be alright, yet, nobody would ever say that to me. You wanna know something ? All these years, I never had a surprised party from my family and friends ; yet, get jealous of those who get it. I never heard someone say 'Thank you' to me even when I did say that to them. I wanted to appreciated my friends and what I have, but sometimes, friends just come and go. Only the true ones sticks by. And I know, I have the most great family, sibling and cousins in the whole universe..sorry to say that I'm not quite close with them, except for my mother. I really really love her, and the fact that I don't wanna lose her at all time. I think it's time for me to appreciate those who stand by me through thick and thin, no matter what and say thank you to them. Even when they would think you're being weird for saying but what the hell. Just..do it when you're in doubt. It's not easy these days for us to gain trust from people that we know. Some might get back stabbed, being lied to, talking behind our backs. We can't please anyone, that's true. Well, haha. Enough of this rambling-about-nothing. I'mma go. Later.

-Rosalina.

200th POST !

2010-11-08T21:57:00.003+08:00

Hai. Today is my 200th post on Blogger after all the crap and shitloads that I've been through by telling you people about my life. So I really wanna tell you people who's been reading my blog (or not) a lil' something about me.

I'm just another fifteen year-old girl who likes to write.
I have changed from being a tomboy who don't give a fuck about what other people think of me to a girl who got so insecure about, almost everything, letting my mind control the body, almost everything in me too. I can never be myself again.
I realized that no matter how nice people are in front of you, they're gonna thrash you behind your back anyway.
I play guitar.
I am five foot and four inches tall.
I'm pretty much an insecure person, which means I don't trust people easily let down to tell them my secrets. So, anyone who have my trust, I'll tell them anything.

Theres lot more to come but I would like to keep it short. So, later.

-Rosalina

Here's another confession/rage from the deep core of my fucking heart.

2010-11-02T19:02:00.001+08:00

You know what, I'm fucking tired of people who just throw me away and then fucking lie to my fucking face without them even realizing. What, you think I'm such a dumb ass to believe all your fucking lies and all that stuffs ? You keep actin' all cool and that and thinks that everything's okay but it's NOT. THINGS WERE NEVER OKAY. NEVER. Man, I fucking hate you since primary school, you're such a life ruiner. No wonder now all of your close friends were like bitchin' about you behind your back. I notice in you too. You know what, I think it's all because you, that my fucking childhood to make friends with every one is fucking ruined. You bitch talk me until everybody in the whole class hates me. "Siapa tak suka Rosalina angkat tangan, kalau tak angkat tangan dia jahat" Ahhh, memories, do you remember when you fucking told that to everyone ? YOU FUCKING REMEMBER THAT ?! Luckily, there's this one sweet person who said, "Rosalina, saya suka awak tau *pats my back*" eventhough I was acting cold to her, she was nice to me. I shouldn't have been a bitch to her in the past. When she said to me, I was at the urge of crying, but yea, I did cry, and tried so hard not let anyone see me crying. I bet you fucking scumbag didn't remember that. You think you're so cool because you're rich, ah fuck that. You're one of the main reasons that I don't have friends, and the way I'm acting to other people right now. You're the one who influenced me into not befriending with that person, this person. But look who's talking now. You, yeah you still being friends with them. I can't believe this.

I FUCKING HATE YOU. I REALLY REALLY DO !

New addiction.

2010-11-02T00:20:00.001+08:00

I love you, Francisco Lachowski ;)

Something to write about.

2010-10-30T02:01:00.000+08:00

Hi, I hadn't wrote in here for weeks or so. I'm in a hotel, in Johore because of my cousin's wedding day is due to tomorrow. So let me tell you a bit about what I do in the past of few days before today :

I finished my PMR examination.
Feeling completely blank afterwards.
Went to Sunway with Dalia and Cina because Dalia wanted to buy a pair of jeans for the upcoming Paramore concert.
19th October, I missed the Paramore concert due to lack of money, like the last time I wanted to go to my most favorite band all time ; My Chemical Romance.
Being envy to the ones who got to their concert -__-
Went school for some arts and crafts activity in the art room.
Make two batik ; Deepavali version (I'm not expecting it at all) and some vintage version.
Went to the art class to accompany Dalia and actually, she wanted me to see the 'mysterious' dude who goes to the same class as she is but he didn't come and in the evening, both of us went to Empire Gallery for a window shopping, but not much. Dalia bought a ring and a best friend necklace for both of us ♥ Lot's of love for ya.
And I think I just said the most stupid-est thing in my whole entire life, knowing that he knows too. So, I'm screwed, done, toasted, burned, whooshed !

And so, now I'm here. In a hotel, playing on this computer, onlining with a freaky weird cashier dude on my right which is now sleeping while watching tv(?) and typing this. I don't really have nothing to do besides blogging, Tumblring, Facebooking. And making click-clacking noises.. I'm bored. I'm furiously bored, and hearing this weird noises outside and its freaking me out. Not, entirely bu still..it's creeeeeeepy. Uh..kay, creeps. Well, I'm gonna stop typing and do something else. So yeah. Later.

-Rosalina.

PARAMORE IS HAVING A CONCERT TONIGHT.

2010-10-19T20:15:00.001+08:00

AND I'M NOT GOING =____=

PMR IS GONEEEEEEE

2010-10-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

Well, once in a lifetime. :|

Feels like I'm running on walls, and I don't wanna touch the ground.

2010-09-26T23:14:00.001+08:00

So, wait. Let me start the this post by another word besides 'so'. Hey, what's up you guys ? I'm fine I think. just got over my trials recently and another two weeks time I'll be having PMR. I'm having some little problems in my life regarding to some personal stuffs. People look down on me, making me feel like some worthless human being and I don't know how long can I LIVE WITH IT. It's like a hard bitch-slap on your face with a knife on your back at the same time. I really, really need someone to talk with, someone to let it all out without judging me. But I'm afraid they might so, I just keep it in my heart instead. Things getting harder everyday, I know. Life was never meant to be easy. We just keep on trying to be a better person. Sometimes we had to change, and accept the fact that everybody's telling you things that they shouldn't. The truth, somehow hurts. And I've been so patience for some long time I guess. I don't know know when it will explodes. Or maybe not. I'm not trying to look for attention or some freaking shoulder to cry on, I'm just writing this so I can actually feel better about myself. I've never been that someone that you can actually trust on, 'cause they never believe in me. That makes me feel so un-confident about myself. You see, when I try to do something right, nobody sees it. And when I coincidently do something wrong, people will point it all out and then hate me for the rest of their life. Not really accepting me in their life as their friend. I appreciate what I have, I do. I don't always bragging about what I have. Or if I do, sorry if it hurts your feelings or what so ever. I just don't wanna be..misunderstood. Again. You told me to change myself, I did and you blaming me for that ? And don't tell me it's for my own good, because its not. I try to be friendly with some other people, someone gets misunderstood. And looking at me as if they disgusted with me or something. I always get that look, you know ? It's not pleasant. So one day, the discipline teacher told me something that no one has ever told me before. Even if I told people, they say its bullshit. I don't care. I don't fucking care. She told me that I reminded her of her young-self. I was flattered, of course. No one had ever said that to me. Sometimes I heard it at the TV. Wondering my life couldn't got any better after this. Probably, I'll just have to..I don't know. Move on or something. Well, had to go. Bye.

-Rosalina

Dub dub

2010-09-24T16:56:00.002+08:00

So recently, I've just finished my second trial and the big exam's another tow weeks and I can't really online much. So far, I've been studying a little hard, I don't know, I just feel like this is just a little test. But I really wanna put up some effort in it so I can really score As' for the exam. I really do, but lazyness conquer everything. At least not my whole mind. Just the body.
Oh, and WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK, MAN. I just opened up my Myspace account and just browsing through the bulletins and I found my favorite all-time band which is My Chemical Romance, HAD A NEW ALBUM COMING UP ! They once came to Malaysia but I couldn''t come :( I was crying like freakin' hell man. But..I can still go and see them everyday online. As I grow up, I began to lose interest for them, but they're always in my heart. Okay, the new album is called Dangerous Days : The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys. Like dang man. Gerard dyed his fucking hair RED. That's cool. Frankie got fat, Mikey dyed his hair blonde and Ray, he looks like Slash. Wait, I think somebody's missing. WHERE THE HELL IS BOB ?! EY, got to go. Later :)

-Rosalina

Please don't go.

2010-09-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

So, I just got back from the two open houses Sya's and Dalio's and I am so freakin' full. Like I've been eating the whole day and I think I'm getting fat, none the less. In two days more, I'll be having a post-trial, which is my second trial. I know I had to stop playing around anymore and I've got to study. But yeah, you know me. NOBODY CAN FOCUS ON THEIR STUDY IF THEY'RE STUDYING WITH ME. Whatever, I start the day with a pretty much fucked up mood and now I'm a little happy. For now. So, I'mma go off. Later.

-Rosalina

Happy Malaysia Day !

2010-09-16T14:06:00.001+08:00

To all Malaysians out there :D

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all the Muslims :)

2010-09-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

Forgive me for my wrongdoings, my bad attitude, my harsh languages and if I treated you people like an ass. Have a safe journey back to your hometown and again, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Sincerely from,

Ngeheheh

Rosalina

Don't You Care By Angelo Munji

2010-09-08T12:18:00.001+08:00

#Verse 1
The hours pass by
and I am by your side
Im so happy to be there with you

But sometimes I
feel invisible,
and I wonder, what did I do?

#Pre-Chorus 1
I should be happy
That I have you all for me
but sometimes, theres this pain that I feel...

#Chorus
Dont you care
that I think about you all day..
your the reason that Im okay, everyday...

Dont you care
that you mean the whole world to me
that Ive been tryin to help make you see, we're meant to be..

Please believe me...
believe me...

#Verse 2
You hold my hand
I'll do the best I can
Im happy to be here with you

Theres nothing Id do
that beats being with you
and I hope, you feel it too...

#Pre-Chorus 2
I should be happy
that you gave the chance to me,
but how come, I just dont see...

#Chorus

#Pre-Chorus 3
So tell me baby,
if what we have is real..
I'll be here waiting
to tell me how you feel...

#Ending Chorus
Don't you care
that you mean the whole world to me
that Ive been tryin to help make you see, we're meant to be..

Don't you care
that I made a song about you
and to tell you that I love you
I hope that'll do...

to my baby boo...

Isn't this guy sweet ? He wrote it himself, and I think I can relate to him :) ♥

-Rosalina

What to blog about ?

2010-09-05T23:42:00.010+08:00

I guess, lets talk about my dream that I had earlier this morning. Hihi, I realized that I am half-asleep and I was dreaming that I hangout with some of my friends and apparently, Flo was there. Looking and glancing around. I was holding a freakin' clock or something like that---eh wait, I WAS HOLDING A FREAKIN OBJECT THAT SHAPED LIKE A PEAR !-- and asked everybody,
"Hey, does this look like a ---I forgot already so it starts with a B or I D K-- ?"
"Umm no," and they shooked their heads and turned away.
And then Flo came around, sitting in front of me while drinking water from a bottle. I slowly turned to him and asked him the same thing. He smiled and shook his head. He even laughed. And so, I tried to communicate with him in that dream of mine and everything felt so real. My mom said that our souls have been wandering around the world, and when we wanted to wake up, they'll just woosh back into our bodies. I don't know why I think this is so cool :O Haha, am I fantasizing too much ? I think I am. :) This is so weird. I'd better go on with my current life now. Haha, later.

-Rosalina

The thoughts in my head.

Heads up.

Late.

Food and students.

I've been thinking 'bout forever~

Lifetime.

Camp PKBM (L) Peringkat Zon Tengah 2011

Survival Camp.

Random shit 1

Happy, happy, happy !

Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Tragic.

3D'S Reunion ?

Anugerah Cemerlang Ko-Kurikulum SMKSSAAS 2011 !

When life gives you lemons, make lemonades.

Sick bastard.

I need to know where I stand.

Um.

We are broken.

Question my insanity.

BOTB SMKSSAAS 29/06/2011.

Insecurities.

Some song.

Big Bang's oldest Hyung.

Kuih Goyang or Loyang or whatever.

Longing for adventure.

Verge.

Victorious.

Gerard Arthur Way,

SSAAS DRUM CORPS at S.O.X Drum & Dance Battle

Everybody lies.

Ba-dum-tss.

Set yourself on fire.

Something to share with or not.

Blues and hues.

'Cause good times never stop.

Tremble.

Boom boom blom.

Whoopty-fucking-do.

Stutters.

I AM NOW..cooler than you. *wait, make it..awesome*

HAPPY NEW YEAR, BITCHES !

Paralyzed.

Bloody hell.

Noise and kisses.

3 DEDIKASI'S CLASS PARTY 2010

Well, he's pretty, handsome and awkward.

200th POST !

Here's another confession/rage from the deep core of my fucking heart.

New addiction.

Something to write about.

PARAMORE IS HAVING A CONCERT TONIGHT.

PMR IS GONEEEEEEE

Feels like I'm running on walls, and I don't wanna touch the ground.

Dub dub

Please don't go.

Happy Malaysia Day !

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all the Muslims :)

Don't You Care By Angelo Munji

What to blog about ?

I AM NOW..cooler than you. wait, make it..awesome